Keep forgetting to blog in perfect english here..haha. Thx Doretta for the reminder =)

IFP exams are finally over. . . . yEah~ one down and 4 more to go! All the best to u guyz out there! Waiting desperately for holidays to come...first is to meet up with all my friends. Those that I've left out since I started to get busy these few months..and of course, those that I've flew airplanes for a million times. Ha....kaiwen elin kimmy rina ... see u all soon! Lets hope that time flies faster now and slows down in the hols k!

Very soon, another semester's gone, and of cos, another year's gone. Hmm...dun think I've achieved any of my goals this year. EH.. . .. lets hope next year will be a better one k!

Something wrong with my chinese blog ... but all sudden feel like bloggin in chinese. What the. ..

突然觉得自己是一个很没有内涵的人 ，多说话只会显得自己多愚蠢。My brain works quite slowly, take for example, someone insult me at 2pm, 2.30 i realised i was insulted, get angry at 2.40, and only thought of something to rebutt him/her at 3 pm. I just cant be like rina or alex or rp. .. .able to analyse and react fast. 唉~lucky there are always people like kaiwen in this world. I wont be the slowest ~ haha~

Work today as usual. Extra tiring. Hmmm anyway...my shop is directly opposite the neoprint shop. Every weekends always flooded with couples, school kids, families ... its actually quite fun to see them crowding round the machines, choosing designs, discussing about poses and stuffs. Can see lots of 俊男美女 also.. erm rarely see 俊男啦， but 美女 quite alot. Just discovered that quite alot of model-looking type of girls hang around Bugis ... with their boyfriends. ^_^

Din wana mess with anymore stuffs this few days. Been busy handling my personal matters.. . ..was playing a psychology test in the library that day. Title was something like "Have you really gotten over him?" (Whereby the 'him' is suppose to refer to ex-boyfriends la). My test result was "need more time" and "still have some feelings but trying to control" or something similar la. Quite accurate I should say?

Sometimes I think I might be getting too sensitive. Trying to control myself but ~ or maybe its just pms la. Haha.

Sometimes.. .just feel that I'm not as important to my family as I thought I was. I feel so left out ... like not being there when there r problems, not being there when they have fun together, not being there to cry or laugh with them. Its like I just exist as a imaginary daughter and sister. There's no evidence of me in the house at all. .. .the only reason for them to call me up or send me stuffs is just plainly because they have gotten used to it. Its real lonely to see a family photo without me inside it.

I dont understand the whole point of returning to my so-called 'home' ... I'm really dying to go back, but do they really want me back? Am i still considered part of the family even if I only see them for less than 60 days per year? I'm afraid to go back to a home where people only fake care and concern about me .. i'm losing faith in them. And myself too.

.........................................Actually whats the whole point of blogging all these here?

Edited my noon's entry cos it was sOoOoO boring...anyway just noticed something, why are there so few messages in my chinese blog as compared to here? Or is my chinese just to .. erm difficult?(whahaha)

Ate quite alot of ice-cream these few days. If my weight increase ...that miss Zhang who always psycho me go eat her 50cents mac ice cream will be dead very soon.Been stuffing myself with alot of snacks lately, ice creams la, chocolates la, candies and stuffs....especially during my work hours ah that skinny senior of mine keep offering me biscuits cookies green tea ... our shop is like another refugee camp.

Something's going on within the class lately. .. if that particular person reading this blog, hope u understand the whole situation by now. What i wana say here is that - - -- i'm just a normal boyish type of girl. Just because I seem to be the noisy one among the quiet crowd doesnt necessarily make me a leader among them. Please make clear that all the girls around me have a mind of their own .... I dun have that much authority and power to brain-wash them.

Regarding this matter, honestly, I'm getting sick and tired of all those questions people ask me everyday. I know people are concern...I also know that it looks very wierd with all the girls at one side of the room and leaving one at the other end of the room alone. Its not that we find pleasure in this, but each of us have our own reasons , which i prefer not to say here. I duno about the others, but i really dont think what i'm doing is wrong. What did i do? I merely left her alone. Its just that when all of us leaves her alone , it looks like we are bullying her and she looks so pitiful and stuffs. Doing nothing means wrong meh? If i talk bad behind her and tells people of all the bad things i dislike about her , then its wrong what. Right?

I got lots of complaints about the Oop walkthru today! But keep repeating the same stuffs to huijuan and sandy already so dun really feel like repeating here again ~ Anyway. Juz wana say that it seems more like a test on "Bradshaw Marina"s coding rather than a walkthrough on MY assignment. Wtf.

Realised that every saturday sure meet alot of HongKong customers in my shop. Duno why also... sometimes within one day can serve around 20+ Hong Kong customers. The wierd part is, among all these 20+ customers, none of them are my friends. I'm thinking that if every saturday I serve 22 HongKong customers very soon I can meet up with one or more of my old school-mates bah ... ?

Boss came down to our shop today to pass ur our pay...work for so many hours and yet so little pay. Just nice $100 only...gotta wait for next pay to get more since I work on both weekends this month. Hopefully can get all my pay before I go back.

Anyway Boss say I should change the way I talk to customers ar ... cos he caught me talking to a customer too casually ~ but the fact is that -- - -- i was just too stressed serving the customer with the boss standing next to me. Its like taking an exam paper with the teacher standing next to you looking at what u'r writing. s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d

Zc just now message ask me go sentosa with the class guys tommorrow..haiz. Cant go ar ~ think that all these jobs are making me so 'no~ life~'. Whatever la. ... I shall play hard after exams!

1 down and 43 more to go

Buddha bless ah bon o__0 My Oop assignment is completed!! Yeah~ (**bounces around**) though not really fully completed, but... who cares? Its enough for me to pass my assignment. Now depending on my walkthrough tommorrow...buddha bless me again!!!!!!!

Assignments never dies....still got IMC and ECID projects gotta rush through next week. Coming week should be a SLIGHTLY more relaxed week i hope? ha...anyway frenz out there, gan-ba-tte! 4 plus more weeks before the end of the term...time flies remember?

44 days to my departure 0.0 still so long....Haiz. Keep thinking about this everyday...like what i'm going to wear, what i'm going to eat, who i'm going to call, what m i bringing back now and later...u know, stuffs like that. Argh~ and my shopping list is getting longer day by day! What m i going to do ! (**hint hint**)

One day I think I'll just fly to somewhere and start a brand new life. No more blonde hair (N purple n pink n blue...), No more jerseys, no more hair wax hair gel, no more big tees and baggy bots ... (at the moment)I wana be some girl who's barely notice by anybody, cries when she feels like crying, laugh like a lady (erm...?), being treated nicely by guys and on the whole looks like a quiet and shy type of girl. At least guys take her as a girl and not a brother .... thats what i wana be (for the moment...i like to change my mind >_< ).

To all those that contributed help to my OOp assignment .... a million thanks ! And to all those that squeeze my neck these few days ar ( alex zc wilson tan wc ------______------- )...go eat shit la!

HapPie bIrthDay kImMY!!!!

Just wana say a few words before I go to bed. Time really flies...I still could remember kimmy's 16th birthday. It was a rainy day.. i remembered so well cos me n another classmate had a quarrel over the rain. Ha. We gave her a huge pooh bear for bdae that year. Then the following year i gave her a jigsaw puzzle. N now I'm giving her a lipstick...so wierd. Like..erm..from bears to lipsticks. From girl to woman. See what i'm trying to say? Just feel like we're no kids anymore.

Suddenly feel so old...dun wana grow up. Honest speaking, I rather face all my assignment deadlines, my java programmings, my D-minuses in my test papers than to face the reality world, the taxes, the bills, marriage, health insurances blah blah blah ... all these scares me. So what if i'm a coward. ... good luck to all those 18+ people out there. Enjoy yourself~ wahhahahha~

HappIe chIldREnz dAy to everybody out there!

Nf teacher gave us animal paperclips this morning as children's day present..so nice of her ^_^ Long time since I got any presents from teachers. . .. esp on children'z day. Cant remember getting any since sec 3 onwards. Miss those days in crescent...everytime got this type of festivals .. like childrenz day/youth day/v.day .. we used to run around the 1st level distributing lollipops to frenz. Real nice to recieve presents on that day...sort of a evidence to show that u'r remembered and cherished by frenz even though we're in different class.

Now no more le(*oppz*)...went crescent that day with San...it was so different. D garden in between the classroom blocks was in a mess, they were building a link from the 3rd level of our classroom blocks...so d school classroom blocks that side were sort of in a mess. Sec 3 n 4s were staying in containers in the school field ( N there goes our school field ) .. wonder whether they have air-con inside the stuffy metal boxes. A piano was placed at a corner of the mini-forum...mayb next time when we go back again can play it for a while. And the most important thing --- the canteen weighing scale! Change le.. .not the old one anymore! Me, san n shao they all...used to weigh ourselves after every recess. Comparing our weights...covering our weights...argued about ways of dieting...hmm. N now that I never specially put myself on a diet ... i actually lost weight!! wahahahaha~

Saw gerald today with his..erm...gf? Not really sure issit...but they were alone eating at canteen 3. Hmm...never see him alone with any female species before. Me n hj was DAMN INTERESTED in dat girl...not really pretty at first sight. Zc they all said not bad n stuffs...so disapointing. >.< But 2nd time when she walk past our table (hehe..with gerald~)...think that she's OKIE la. Sort of those big n watery eyes, very innocent n sweet look that type? My opinions la...>_<

Aniway just a summary of what i did today ---- going crazy over the Oop project. I tink i'm cracking up soon. >.<