Invest and lose it all.
I wouldn't call that a stupid act. I regard it as a nice attempt, fees paid for a lesson, a pinch from life to remind me that I'm alive. Taking it this way does make me feel better.
Sometimes I jerk awake, caught myself red-handed in the action of being nice again, a voice in my head shrieks "Why cant you learn?" and a voice in my heart whispers "Stop before you break again". Both are right.
Sometimes I try to play it your style. I got the moves right and the emotions wrong.
I hate you for getting me all upset.
