I don't have my diary with me, otherwise I would have done a very well recap of 2010 whats-ups.

2010 was chaotic.

Number one, I didn't quite got used to being in 2010 until the middle of the year, after my uncle passed away, me got removed from an department to another, AFF happened and passed without bothering us, resuming trainings for girls, guys came guys passed blah blah blah. After all these. I felt like Alice, dropping into that long rabbit hole.

And wham. I'm down. In the middle of nowhere, senses waking up.

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Felt drugged. Shagged. Felt that its time to move on. And with a hundred of voices mumbling crazy words into my ears, I really felt that it might be high time to move on. Why not?

I can't find an answer to this. Not a definite one, at least.

Things got worst, stress piled up to its peak, I gave up trying to be 101 dalmatian. I need to get some life. I'm getting old.

And thats what I did. Spending more time out of the office, into friends' lives, crossing the paths of strangers and yeah, ruining alot of people's day. Ha.

I watched 4 concerts. Jam Hsiao, SHE, Show and Jay's.

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I hit the clubs more often. And pubs. Alcohol training. Fooling around.

I spent alot of time missing the dead.

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I spend more time with friends.

I fell in love. Just when I thought I'll never say the word love to anybody.

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And thats the best thing happened, best way to wrap up 2010, best way to start 2011.

I lost some partners, fighting babes that has been with me a long way through. I found new mates, fighters training-in-progress. I thrashed it out with some, got conflicts ironed out and gave up reasoning with those who can't talk sense.

I made a choice to stay, partly for stability, and partly for somebody who wished and asked me to.

My resolution of 2011 is pretty short:

1) Work hard, play hard. Carpe Diem!

2) Its not a honeymoon period darling, its how we would be for the next fifty years.

3) Stay good and true to friends.

4) Be richer!

5) Erm...get internet connection into my house soon. Ha.

Loving everyone of you peeps out there, stay alive. Love Life *v*

I hate the sunny island but I wana come back now.

I spent the day with someone I love.

Had wishes from those I cared.

Came back home to those that waited.



What more can I say? I'm so blessed.
Now thats a happy birthday.

Leaving town tomorrow for a good ol' long holiday, carefully avoiding departing town before the crazy sms period of 12 midnight - 8am. Last year I almost cried watching my phone beeping non-stop in Hong Kong.

Anyways.

Finally hitting the mid-twenties, I can hardly feel it. I've set targets for myself before, say like when I hit 20 I'm gonna start my own business (which we did and failed), when I hit 23 I'm gonna get a career (which I'm still holding on to dearly), by 28 I'm gonna give birth, married or not dah dah dah.

I can't think about anything I wana do this year.

Had some plans on a career advancement at other countries, but somebody asked me to stay =) Will this be a slip of opportunity I really don't care; I'm loving my life right now, and thats what matters.

Merry christmassss peeps *v*

I had a huge present *v*

Had a great night at Ascott Raffles, check out my FB for pictures, will blog about it in newstation soon.

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Birthday's coming in 3 days time, I'll be out of town by afternoon time. Just another trip back home, I'll be back before you know it. Thank you everyone for all your early birthday pressies and especially the cardddssss, I love cards. Words. Written words. The effort of picking up a pen to scribble little stuffs.

People are so lazy nowadays, my expectation level is dropping so low. Ha.

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My void deck is now officially the gathering point for crybabies, bless me they didn't all come at the same time (then again if they can put up a nice fight it wld be omg so exciting). I can spend hours with girlfriends heart to heart talk hear them cry hear them whine...BUT NOT GUYS. Especially guys like these.

Thank you very much for your appreciation, but lets put a stop to these nonsense.

And the solution to all is just 2 words : "I'm taken." Hahahahaha *v*

MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

A small little trip (both meanings) can result to 2 weeks MC and crutches. Woo hoo.

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I'm not going to be a candied girl.

I'm not going to be a candied girl.

I'm not going to be a candied girl.

I'm not going to be one that sticks.

Learning from the mistakes of all those stupid girls I've laughed at.

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Games are not so fun to play with anymore. And this. is. bad. I can't even concentrate on field practice, the strings that I've roped are loosening and are on fire, I'm doing things that I've never did.

Wonderful =)

My heart beats too slow when I'm with you, and too fast when you're not around.

THIS.IS.BAD.

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Darling, I don't like disputes.

I don't like being upset with each other. Especially you.

Other than times when you've flew me airplanes after dry-waiting for 3 hours in Orchard, and being late because you need to do housework when I know that really, you're just hogged to the TV, I've never been pissed with you at all. Just upset.

Especially over a piece of shit that is really, really, really not worthy of your attention and my anger. (Worthy or not I really feel like smashing that piece of shit flat. As if its not flat enough *roll eyes*)

You knew I would write this here. I know you will be reading.

You know how frustrated I am whenever I see you get yourself into the same mess. I know you know what you're doing.

You know what you're doing darling. Its time to powder on your cheeks, smack those glossy lips and walk out that door.

I want to see you this Friday k *big tearful smile*

It popped out of nowhere and blended in with your life, blended so well like it has always been there all along.

I'm saying hi to a new habit. Good or bad, I can't decide.

We'll see.

After 7 days of getting-nothing, I finally completed (almost lah almost) my christmas shopping. San and Kimmy too!

San (could have) got me the same key ring from Mont Blanc, I really wouldn't mind (cos the shape of it do look like a bottle opener).

I (would have) freaking love Sandy Koh if she bought it for me. Though I'm no big fan of M.B.

Lynette's @ P.H, did I have a choice not to go? Look at her pretty xmas tattoo (or stick on, whatever you name it)

Ya ya ya, I know I'm pushing the blame. Be quiet won't you.

We played Hide and Seek @ Powerhouse on a saturday night, it would be so much fun if the hunters were abit more spontaneous. Lousy in all aspects as usual.

We even had time to dance and snap.

Last but no least, special of the day.....we have a pretty girl here (if she slims down)

Liling's gone to Taipei this morning, I'm anticipating for stories. Kakakaka *evil laughter*

I've no idea why is it so busy this December, was so prepared to work on paperworks and graphics. Don't get me wrong, I'm not hating it....just, don't like things that are not planned in my schedule.

PS: I've got my scheduler for 2011 already so PLEASE don't get me another one.

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I've spent 6 days doing Christmas shopping and has not even completed half of my list. Intending to finish up the rest today．

To my dearest friends, you won't be getting Christmas pressie on time this year. Its my way to express appreciation for all the love received from you guys, so I'm determined to get something meaningful instead of grabbing crap for the sake of giving something. See me when I'm back from Hong Kong and I promise sweet smiles. =))

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Alex Lee got a bike. From next Jan onwards, rainy days are NOT meant to be emo, please stay extra ultra alert. 马路如虎口啊兄弟.

You. Stay alive.

Despite all the crap that you've done, you're still my favourite boy.

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Its a drama week, but then again crazy happenings seems to be normal in December. Trying to get the hang of it.

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Small group gathering @ crystal jade. Finallyyyy *roll eyes*

好久不见啊宝贝.

Hairy gang.

He's the 酒鬼, not me.

Fat hairy girl and awfully cutie pie. Kakakakakakak XD

Aw come on.

Break.

If your friends has heard nothing but negative feedbacks about your partner.

Break.

If you rather not pick up calls.

Break.

If you can't stand it anymore.

Break.

If the problem can't be solved.

Break.

If you guys are unhappy together.

But if you'd rather be unhappy together than unhappy separated, then.....grit your teeth, all this pain will be over soon.

You wish.

Thanks for the enlightenment from Jason. Its like a big whack on the head, making the world spin and then tadah, I'm back on my feet!

*Roars*

Giena started work.

Davania started hers weeks back.

Apple's giving birth tonight.

Gary's left.

I'm getting used to the new team.

Everybody moved on.

But sometimes, sometimes, I look around and half expect to see Giena's sitting right beside me, click click clicking away at Cafe World. I thought I heard Davania slamming the toilet door after plopping her bag on the stairs. I wanted to shout out to Ah Zai to pass the casting pics up.

And you realised, nobody's there.

Awwwwwww :'(

We've got a new boy in office, no idea how long will he last.

December's here. FINAAALLY *roll eyes*. You know how long I've been waiting for you darling!

29th November, gonna be a long day.

A long hard day for many of us.

While my sis cries the day away, I'll smile in pain. =)

I love you.

I hate you.

I love you.

I hate you.

I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.

Okay sorry, I don't really hate you.

Number One, I apologize for being so short-tempered nowadays. I've been offending alot of people these two weeks and I really hate it. And yet, I'm numb about it.

I can't stop talking.

I need to keep talking.

I need to get my mind busy.

Darlings I'm really sorry =(

My fast and efficient method in cleaning the floor. Can train up calves while doing housework, and abit on the waist too.

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Perhaps I should go low on alcohol.

But then again, what for?

29th is an important date, I dread it because I'm not sure where my limits are. My sister's tear glands are very active, I can't help but sympathize her friends and classmates. She's one drama queen, its in the blood.

I'm telling too much nowadays. Hush.

I'm tough.

I'm very tough.

I'm freaking tough.

Go on and try me, I'm amazingly tough.

I will be if I kid myself enough, I think.

Deadlines rock.

Deadlines sucks.

Deadlines rock.

Deadlines sucks.

Deadlines rock.

Deadlines sucks.

Halloween night was a craze, I've already blogged about it on Newstation so won't repeat again here. For the convenience of those who are so lazy to click on the tabs, here goes some snaps.