2003 is about to end soon. Lots of stuffs, lots of new experiences tis year. Though not all happy ones...but each n every single one of these experiences enlightened me. (enlightened...did i use enlightened?) My opinions for lotsa stuffs changed....about life, about relationships, about friends, about future........and about the people around me. i believe i have changed (alot?maybe) ...but sometimes i like to fall back to the old-me, esp when meeting long lost frenz. Like meeting amy tis time round in HK. Felt that both of us are starting to cherish this friendship between us more than ever. Both half-grown up...learning to know that friends come and go and come and go. Learnt that the solution iz not to make more and more new friends but to cherish and hold on to the friends we have now.

Relationship wise....i guess i havent been a smart girl this year...ha. Too emotional? Too rash? Maybe. Didnt regret in liking that guy, but rather regret all my silly actions and stuffs. Have been doing alot of thinking while i'm away from sgp... ... about all those guyz i've met, liked, and passed me by. And my conclusion is....the problem lies with me. I cant sort things right. I cant make up my mind in what i really want. And I.......I just don't give guyz the impression that I AM A GIRL. One guy told me before that he wouldnt want to be seen with me(as his girlfriend) and yet his friends think that he's with his brother. Been damn hurt by this point at that moment....bt now, maybe he's right? That's what guyz think?

Friendship wise....din really made much new friends but, in some way strengthened the bond btw some frenz. Esp after the serious quarrel in Sept >_< Ok all these are from the bottom of my heart..To wen rina and elin, though seldom see them, but i m really touched to know that when something happen, u guyz still call me up, turn to me for console or wadsoever. For i know i'm quite useless...cant help u ppl in practical ways, give lousy advices and stuffs. To san...guess we are now at another level of friendship le. Not like crescent times, share joy but not troubles. Though sometime we have cold war btwn us.....but so what!? Ho.......and to hj. Feel too attached to her. In some way she's a sis to me...and thx to her help, my np life is great! Yeah thx ppl. Bon have learnt to appreciate u pplz le ^_^

Too long entry today. 18 this yr...din really feel much grown up ar. Not yet matured...but not that innocent anymore. Still waiting for miracle....or issit i have to buy that miracle? Hmmm.........wishes for next yr are....
1) Miracle happen--------ah bon become prettier!!!!
2) Steady income
3) Recieve flowers in vdae
4) See desmond again

No longer wish for bf lu~ haha.....hope to stay single and happy!!!!!!!!!

PS: There's another blog of today below =)

I blog in red so u guyz will notice dat i blogged! Ho....happie bdae to me! 18 le....n yet miracle still din happen. Haiz....nt really sad cos expected le >.< To those hu te di da gei wo........thx! U guyz made my day ar! U noe hu u are la ~ i love u all k!!

Rather mizz sgp ar...esp Np. Miz sch....next monday seem so far away!

Anyone watched "Love, actually"? CHing wanted me go watch with her ar...bt din went with her. Saw an article dat dae regarding dat movie which really made me wana go watch. Hmmm....sgp show le mah?

Real cold dis few days...am trying to enjoy my winter. It'll be another 1 n a half yr till my next winter!!!!! SUmore sgp iz so damn hot thru out d yr...i tink i'll miz winter alot ^_^

Here i am again as promised!!Hohoho~ not at net-bar or amy hse lu, nw at cousin's hse. Amy went mainland...so bored here without her! Aniwae! Her bf came back lu...damn sweet ar d both of them. Buey ta han de sweet ar...haix. Too bad my jie lun iz all d way over at taiwan....>.<"

My trip to taiwan is postponed le! Sadz...pushed back to next next yr. Haiz...i was still so excited about it ar. Sianz....hengz next june lots of pplz coming over..heez. Kaiwen la rina la sandy la..alex gerald la (u guyz coming right?)..if eileen oso come den can play 3-3 lu~whahaha...speaking of bball, hafen touch bball for almost a month!!!! Terrible....my fingers itch!

Ma got transfered to another short term job ar..haiz. Financial crisis again le...din wana push all d blame to my father. But sometimes..esp when shopping dat time ar...was like thinking if my father din owe so much den my ma no nd so stressed. Poor thing ar...she used to be an office lady. Now ar...

Oh yar! Dis morning went to yuen long's wishing tree. Hmm...heng nw d price of d wishing stuffs ( Consists of an orange + one big packet of red n yellow papers ) not up yet. Bought two set, one for me one for my sis. Mine was caught in d tree after 2 trials ^_^ Heez...last yr tried to threw it up for more than 15 minz sia. San till nw still hafen come yet ar...haiz. Hope next yr she can come alone to HK den we really really can go wishing tree together bah.

Recommend song -- Eric Carmen " All by myself "

I love Christmas! I love Christmas presents! And i love to recieve Christmas presents! *hint*hint* Hmm...duno how to spend this yr christmas manz. Hmm...very soon after that, it'll b new year, den Vdae, den bball season, den exams.....demoralizing right?

Long time din blog le pplz! Got miz me? Me nw in a net bar in HK ar...damn noisy! Those kids playing CS n stuffs...plus ching nw next to me blastin her speaker...headache *_* Anyway lots of stuffs to blog so tis entry will b a long one..

Finish writing the Xmas cards le! Finally ar...will send them out tml maybe? Check ur mailboxes pplz!

Sandy came n left HK le...haiz. At first she say will stay for 5 days one ar...but end up din really stayd dat long (due to some reasons la ). Damn wasted! We only went out once nia...intended to shop ar, but duno y the three of us so stupid go sing K. Wasted 3 + hours dere...den sumore right after K gota mit her parents le. Felt quite uneasy shopping with her parents cos of age gap? Haix...tink tis time san come hk, we din really enjoy ourselves ar..cos din really get to do wad we planned to do. Wait till next yr bah...speaking of next yr, kaiwen rina said dat they might come back with me during 2004 june hols ar. Hope they really can save money n come bah~ plus my ma say nxt june will bring me go taiwan ar! BUT gotta pay for my own ticket....hope i can save up oso bah!! Next june will be a busy june!

Been back in HK for ard month plus le...kept turning down job offers. Din really wana work here...m scared abt d working environment, d colleages n stuffs liddat. Wonder hw m i going to work when i really get back here...haiz.

Net bar really damn noisy >,< Oh yar btw...i finally got my skirts le! At first cant find appropriate skirts cos nw winter (winter skirts r all leather or other thick materials ).. bt hengz Mongkok still gt sell ar. Gotta dig one ar...still got lotsa stuffs hafen buy yet. Wana buy earphone ar...those big big ones. But tink dun haf enuff money to buy le...sumore wana buy hair dryer wor....argh! Damn broke ar!!!!!!

20 days countdown to my bdae ar! Hmm....will miracle happen? Will i become pretty within 20 days? Tink gotta go wishing tree again before bdae le!If possible i'll come online again before d end of tis month...
PS:Huijuan! I got ur bag le!