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Had fun counting down? Happie 2006!!!!!

As usual..the long blog for the end of the year. Btw, for your information, I’m blogging @ HK. (Sitting with my feets crossed**cold**)

Turning points this year. From student to office lady, from 19 to 20, from part time to full time … … goodbye good ol’ slacking days. *sniffs* Lots of memorable stuffs … struggling with FYP, our last class chalet, graduation Taipei trip with the girls, the two months rest @ HK, cold wars with friends, and that evil event in October… … 2005 has been so so so long. Feels like two years ... school life sound so long ago ><>

Speaking about love. Haiz ~ my right hand is still empty. Hmmm. There were expectations set in the beginning of this year, some were fulfilled but the ultimate goal has already been changed. (*originally, my ultimate goal was to get him before christmas - the him isnt desmond lah, I’m not that dumb* ) I played dirty little tricks, enjoyed them so much that I mistaken myself to be in love. But I wasn’t. And he probably wasn’t too…-_- Then…there were those ridiculous ones, those with silver ring on their fourth finger.Many told me about Karma…I dun really care lah. I donate a lot to cover up one u know *winks*

I duno what affected me but I had a lot of quarrels with friends this year. Esp with Rina, wahahhaha. Laughed cos…there’s really no meaning quarelling with her; she’s a terrific debator. I really duno what got into me. Ever since that one (during URS period) from taka to selegie, our every meeting, or sometimes just phone conversation, involves a heated argument in almost anything. From discussion of the ending of SAW I to crescent stuffs to ridiculous things like location of Starbucks…ridiculous (*rolls eyes*). Then there was San. She skipped the quarelling part and went straight to ignoring me totally. Fortunately everything’s over……I’m really happie to still have them as best pals. =^_^=

Hmmm. And ... I still believe that action speaks louder than words, and that if I don’t start doing something my everyday will be just another today. I havent given up on my dreams ; my first step is to take up dancing course in Feb @ Hype…we’ll see how things goes lah yah. Meanwhile, I’m still the faithful secretary of my bosses ^ ^

I’ve been through more than I can handle this year. So much that I thought I will just bend and break. But I didn’t, and with no thanks to my family members but thanks to the hell lot of friends who really turned up and stood by me. 2006 will be a great year for me … the fengshui book say so (for those born in the year of ox).

Resolution for next year will be ...
(1) Maintain that damn thousand bucks in my bank
(2) Pretty-up
(3) Start a course ( dancing/lyrics/fashion design)
(4) Another taipei trip
(5) Use my brain more often and stay alert
(6) Clear up the mess in my life and remove people that shldnt be staying ard

Lets hope 2006 be the best year for all of us...stay alive!

PS:Black and purple is my currently fav colour!!!!

(6)

Finally joined the twenties crowd ><

I love being home for christmas & birthday . ^ ^

Repair man just came...finally online. Five days back here...weather's chilly. *brrr* Kinda worried abt whassup in office...hope everything's fine!

@ Tsim Sha Tsui yesterday and finally brought my sis to Italian Tomato. Ha. Lots of calls from friends ^^ Happie. . . shall end here for d time being. Back again @ night. *v*

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!

^_^ Lots of smiles. Just done (half done actually) with my packing and too excited to sleep. Look at the amazing amount of pressies I got....

I got this...


and this...


Jenny msg-ed me early in the morn to pass me this...


and this...


my dear hairy monster gave me this...


and the 2-in-1 presents includes these:
another necklace in my currently fav colour from san...




a oh-so-me belt from wennie...


and the pure birthday pressies from my beloved class...


and lots more pending from friends! I'm super duper looking forward for the cookies from darling rina....

Finally saw them and them and them ! Its been a long while since the class comes tgt for a proper gathering like today...i'm happie ^^ So happie that I dun mind being smudged by the mango cake...

** Upload d pix for me can? I wana post the pix!!!!! Xie *_*

Happie things on Happie day. Desmond didnt reply my msg...smilez. Me and san are back to normal...smilez. I got lots of nice gifts...smilez. Being alive...smilez.

For previous blog entry, these were d pix ~


Sunset, sea breeze, mountain far away. I love the colour of the sky.


The rose.


The tic!


Table 31. Last table no?


A pretty girl sitting next to me. She lk much better in real life. ^^


Alex on stage...enlarge this pic. He's somewhere there lah.

I'm supposed to be asleep by now peoples......

Wanted to blog about the dinner on Thurs but since Alex already blogged it ... bleahx. Read his lah ya ... anyway I did enjoy myself that night. The dinner was better than I expected...I was dreading for the Fullerton-standard.

Saw a few familiar faces. Qixian, Derick & his twin...and Herwin! Omg...i thought i got the wrong guy again. He and his partner even got the best dressing award...

I got lots more to say but really very tired le. Will blog tml night when I come back from the xmas eve dinner!!!!

2005 Christmas Eve Gathering
Venue : Nomoto BBQ Japanese Restaurant
Meeting area: Heerens
Time : 8 pm
Dress Code : Santa claus cap!

In case I cant make it back tml night.....MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY!! HAVE FUN!

Bonita has puffy eyes.
***
Long day yesterday. At 7 we went to Cailing's performance @ MS. Oh my she really can dance...just that I think that it'll be even better if she relax and doesnt look so tense. And we saw the famous Xue Gao!!! Even took pic with him ( duno for what ) ^ ^ Saw lots of b-boys & girls btw...I feel easy being with them. At least they do "oooh" and "ahhh" at black socks............

Well. So much for my "Perhaps.Love". We didnt watch it cos there wasnt any pair seats left! SHucKs.....ended at Kbox again. Again and again and again. Aiz. Every saturday - ktv, movie, shopping, watch vcd - pick one. B.O.R.I.N.G. If I have money...I'll leave sgp on friday night for a shopping trip @ Bangkok, then come back on Sunday night. Or maybe go Terrenganu for a relaxing sun-tanning session, or go Taipei catch an autograph session @ xi men ding, or back to HK for a nice warm steamboat at home ... ...that is, if I have the money lah. >_<
I was out like that yesterday...


A nice army jacket @ Zara ... 99 bucks!


Bon @ Artistic pics


Scarf-ed Bon


Cap-ed Kimmy

If you're getting me a present and u have no idea what to get ( ***big hint!!!!!* ) get me one of these ( I really dun mind if u buy more than one....>_^)

1) Leopard / Tiger fur coat @ E-Base $119
2) The burberry bag featured in Cleo this month $570
3) Miu Miu Sunglass $200+


4) Ralph Lauren Pink Blouse $147 (?)
5) Hello Kitty Furnitures


6) Topshop gift card

Bonita says:"Love me. Hate me. I rather you choose one..."
***

As usual, work's busy. The word "work" sounds very sian liao......

Running around, meeting clients everyday. Its even worst than going to matches...basketball courts are so much easier to locate. Fortunately, my boss lets me take the cab almost everytime *smilez* I feel like tai-tai manz......


I love the sun; but I miss the aircon when its too hot....

Some day last week I met up with kimmy to town. She waited for me @ the platform while I waited for that idiot client to turn up down @ the Control Station. Well...when the job was finally over, I went up to the platform and.....





Yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikes! We wore the same top...only different colour!!!!!!!

U think its no big deal? IT IS BIGGGG DEAL. I nearly wanted to go home and change. The last thing I wana hear is :"eeee, so er xin, wear the same like uniform lidat ". I cant believe that I actually stayed in town whole night in that........so embarrassing. So what if people didnt notice? I noticed! I know that we are wearing the same! Arghz!

Haiz. Whatever. So anyway back to today,Hj and I went around hunting for good food. Bugis's Breko was out cos the food sucks, so we left Bugis; Phins dont look good, I didnt wana eat pastamania so we left Cine; I didnt wana eat Nydc so we passed Heeren; Spaggedies's queue was damn long, jap restaurants dun look good, Bakerzinn was full so we left Paragon; by the time we reached Lucky Plaza, the idiot guy told me that they had cleared their fridge --- nothing left. (That blind fool called me tai tai! Uncle!I'm not even 20 hor!) And thats how we ended up @ Pizza hut.


(****Actually I also duno why I have to waste my time typing the above para...all I wanted to say was that we went Pizza Hut***)


Paragon and lots of carols ~


Huijuan's head.


I think this look artistic.


Soup, pasta & hairy monster


All time fav Hawaiian...looks kinda disgusting isnt it


Hj shld have took this ... i dun even know whats this...


Sluuuurp. This the most presentable pic taken by hj.


Full?


WOW. BIG BIG BIG TEDDY!

^_^

A twist ya. Although I dun see why i have to shrink the size...I'll shrink it anyway.

I think its all hormones fault. I've read this somewhere ( or heard it somewhere ) that imbalance of hormones will lead to changes in character, behavior and decision making. As a Capricorn...I believe in all that scientific crapz u know. As a Bonita.....i really really understand what you're going through. I really do. *Sniffz* So .... all I have to say is, since the situation is already like that, just have fun and enjoy life loh. There are times when u dun even care whether its right or wrong, logical or not ... ... meanwhile, lets pray that the feelings go as fast as it comes. Before...u know... u get hurt lah. Yah? Keep me updated. Smilez.

Done all my xmas shopping!! ^^

Spent all my money -_- ~ ...

Going back for Xmas!! ^^

Will miss Yang Cheng Lin's autograph session -_- ~...

Going back for Birthday!! ^^

Happiness overwrites depression. Wu Ha.

Everybody's changing/changed. I think it has something to with the imbalance of hormones, I think. (**Anyway is there such a word as imbalance?) For the better or worst, we'll see lah...meanwhile, just enjoy life and have fun!

Huimin's gone...to taiwan. Hope she brings back my Heme moisturizer and my 8 tube of Lays chips (**Crab, Sushi, Sweet sour pork flavours....woohooo~). Dor's wedding coming soon...omg I think i'm gg to throw in alot of $$ for everything - wedding gift, ang bao, and the 2 dresses. Our class girls are going to be her Sisters. Wu Ha.

Ah ba, Ah ma, Ah Yan, Kaiwen, Lin, Rina, San, Kimmy, Huijuan, Wah Ching, Ah Yi, Zicheng, Alex, Hangloon, Huimin, Gerald, Dengli, Dor, Papa, Shifu, Rongpo, Kor, Desmond, Jenny, Esther, Huiling, Uncle B, Uncle Woh, Auntie Woh, Auntie Kwok, Hang Kit, Ho Kit, Sherlyn, Ruiguo, Ruoyun, Weiren, Shuling, Qiuyi, Carolina, Daphne, Jie Lun, Ah Fang, Ber, Cailing, Shijia, Eva, Brenda, Fina, James, Gary, Mrs Lim, Ms Chia, Winnie, Amy, Wilson, and hundreds more that I couldnt think of at the moment.

I love you guys.

If I know that I am going to die tml, this is what I'll say before I leave.

I dont know if I'll die tml. But at least, I have the chance to say it.

Laren didnt. He didnt even had the time to talk at all. He died on the spot.

Kimmy and I went to the wake. Everything was so untrue. Everybody. Friends that I havent met for the past 4 years and now gathering around at this kinda function. Guys that were sobbing at a corner. Girls coming out, tearing. I couldnt recognize his face at all...it was so plastered with clay and makeup. Stitches at the neck. I didnt realise that it was his corspe until Kimmy told me that it was him, in the coffin. Oh my god...

His body is now ashes. The weather's pretty fine today. Didnt even rain. Life goes on. And he's gone he's gone he's gone...I'm not saying that I'm very very very sad or what cos I wasnt close to him. But we did had fun together 4 years ago...with ly around...hanging out talking crap at SR..watching him skate...having dinner at kopitiam...quarelling with him over ly...

Life goes on.

I wanted to make an happy announcement about Dor's ROM date. Sorry Dor.

Bonita dances,"Its december! Its december! Its december!"
***
Class gathering...make up your mind!

Those who can make it on Sat are : me, huimin, dengli (nite), Dor & papa, hj, alex, jim, ricky

Those who can make it on Sun are : huimin, hl, zicheng, shifu(?)

And so....?

Cfm with me by sms before sat 00:00

Bonita couldnt speak.
***

Intended to skip work totally but couldnt. Shared cab with Hj to office @ 11 am, hoping to finish up urgent stuffs and leave @ 2. Fat hope.

Went straight to the doc ( again ) right after lunch. He gave me a 2-day mc and another rd of medicine. He said that I overworked. Okay......I agree. That finalize my decision on whether to work this coming weekend @ Shibuya.

Anyway I just wana complain abt the whole lot of crapster taxi drivers last night! I waited 1/2 hour for cab at Bugis...somewhere outside the Mos where there are heaps and heaps of taxi all day long. Wennie commented that perhaps they wanted to change shift thats why didnt stopped for me....then why did the girl opposite in the skimpy outfit manage to board a cab within 5 minutes? Tmd... ... just because I wear specs they bully me like that issit ...

I have nice friends. Friends that really care...hj came up with fried rice on sat, then Wennie, today. I have nice friends that disappear too(I know u're reading this).......which I hope will apparate asap cos this the time when I need someone. Your heartless friend here is calling for some help ya.

Its raining outside. Thats why I blogged this.

Its funny how things lingers on and on after so many years. Or maybe its just a bad habit? Everyone keeps telling me,"Kick the habit. Its affecting ur life." I know that. But isnt it happening to everyone else?There will always be someone that vanishes but leave a mark in your life. Someone, some things, some events that you can never wipe out from your memory.

I'm quite sure that I've got over him. But...somehow, there's a shadow.

I'm sensitive to his name. When I see his name in documents or hear his name, I get paranoid and only relaxes when I see that the surname doesnt matches to his. I know nothing about cars. But I stop to read news or reviews about Mitsubishi Evolution series. Whenever I walk past the bball court, I think of him. I compare guys to him. I envy his girlfriend. But yet I don't like him anymore.

He's nothing great. But he's great to me. Which is pretty wierd ... cos I dun even know him in person.

Maybe the reason that I couldnt move on is because nothing happened between the two of us before? If something had happened, anything at all, I might feel better? But why should I be expecting anything out of somebody that I dun even like? Wonderful mess.......

Bonita says,"I swear I'll never trust cheap lens next time. No next time!!!"
***
I will be ugly for 2 weeks.

2 weeks.

Ugly.

2 weeks of ugliness.

Ugly bonita for 2 weeks. I cant stand it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats all in my mind now. Oh damn.

We watched Harry Potter on Thurs ... lin & I agree that the new Dumbledore sucks. Other than that, the movie was quite okay. Some scary bits some touching bits and mostly harry-oh-so-shuai parts. Rina say there should be a Harry Potter land.

Life's pretty much the same. Small pleasant pop-ups here n there but ... Hmm. I think something big is going to happen soon. I duno what but...just have that feeling lah ya. When things hit the bottom of the bottoms, the only next logical sequence is that it will climb up again. Right?

Bonita shouts,"Christmas time is a time to rejoice."
***
Lots of birthdays going on recently.

Mickey Lim's birthday card! He recognises the source of his head immediately ... amazing * o *

The inside. Thou i doubt u can really read it.

A happy boy.

The couple that went.

Awwwww.....imagine the calories!!

I just love this pic.

Yup. This is the tee that u guys paid for and didnt even see it ... ...

Wendy's 21st birthday @ Lollipop KTV pub last sat. Will upload the pics when I have them(that is, if she rem to send me lah). Wendy has slimmed down alot. Hell lot. And of course, as pretty as ever. Many ex 2/6 ppl went too. Wasnt as bad as I imagined la...@ least the cake was nice ^^

The night ended with a, erm, very high Rina & a very tired Kaiwen. I swear I'll never go drinking with Rina ever again......................................

Bonita says,"I cant stand guys that wear heavy perfume."
***

2005....Secret Wishlist

-"E Mo Zai Shen Bian" VCD (Somebody say she buy for me!!!!!Whoooopiii =D)
-Ralph Lauren Pink Shirt ( M Size hor )
-I-Pod Nano ( Actually Shuffle also can lah... )
-Watch

Wendy 21st birthday party tonite! Guess will see lots of pretty girls ... tsk. Theme is black & white but I really duno what to wear. Feels even worst than going for an important interview............

Bonita says,"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKEY LIM ZAC!!!!"
***

I saw JJ last night at hmv, standing next to me @ the cashier. Quite short and fair...with 3 friend/PAs. I should be the coolest customer le...there were many that were screaming and jumping about. I gave them a "JJ nia. Big deal." look and left the cashier.

Once out of HMV, I start calling and sms-ing everyone frantically abt me standing next to JJ @ Hmv. Ha.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! Light ups @ orchard le ... the xmas tree outside Paragon sucks. Look like some new year tree...ugly. Last year's was so much nicer. Anyway,,,,,,I'm still trying hard to fight for my hk xmas tree. Waiting for the chance to persuade my boss.....kinda hard cos I've been messing up things these few days. Tsk.

This month's going to be a hard month. Ganbatte x 100. >_<~~~~~

Bonita roars:"Never give up!!!"
***
I tried.
Failed.
I tried.
And failed.
I try again....and TA DAH! I connected to NP DIAL UP!!!!

*tsk tsk**pathetic*

I'm still using Kimmy's account. Last friday they denied access, duno why suddenly can connect le. Anyway I'm prepared for the worst...I got my ex-colleague to lend me her account. That should last me another 3 years ~ Muahahahaha (Ok lah once i'm 21 i go apply bb k)

Lots of terrorism reports these few days. Its kinda scary...those suicide-bombings. Selfish people...wana die still wana pull people along. Crazy. If one day terrorism invade singapore ... my backpack is ready at my door. Just for runaway purpose lah. That day I was thinking about what to include in the backpack and this the list:

1_ Passport, HK & Sgp IC
2_Wallet & ATM ( Guess my ATM wun come in handy...cos not master/visa...)
3_HP & Charger
4_Disman
5_10 CDs (David Tao's collection, NQMM, Joey's "9 to 5", Jay's Ye Hui Mei + 1st album + Qi Li Xiang, Onitsuka's "This Armour", LMF, Miriam's "Ye hai zi", Yanzi's burn cd )
6_My skull tee
7_My baseball jacket
8_Biscuits
9_Cosmetics (my shiseido cleanser, dior cake, eyelash curler, loreal mascara...)
10_Tissue. As many as possible.

I still think its abit too much. Maybe I should remove some out of my list. But somehow all these seems so important ...... how ar.

Last class gathering was sweaty. Hj was sick and couldnt come ... so end up the four of us walked around Clarke Quay for an hour plus in search of the Settlers Cafe. Seriously.. somebody should buy a car. Anyway the cafe was more entertaining than I expected....we spent ard 170++. They had games I never ever heard of...and no, we dun play monopoly there la please. And guess what? Alex Lee came! A big suprise...havent seen him for like, months? Havent really seen all the guys together since graduation......

Bonita says,"Lock is done."
***

Called my bro ( YA I KNOW I SAID TT I WUN CONTACT HIM EVER AGAIN..I SLAP MY OWN MOUTH K ) regarding the lock thingy and he gave quite abit of useful information. Even volunteered to come up & help...I bought a lock @ a DIY shop over @ IMM last evening but it wasnt compatible to my door. Anyway...the conclusion is, the lock is done. My ma did it. Tsk. Hate it when she beats me to something........

Today was supposed to be happy day ... me and my ma went Boat Quay for Thai food & stuffs. All her fault lah...go mention something that she definitely know will upset me. Well anyway...the night ends with the both of us crying and crying and crying and crying. I'm so damn sick of crying. I'll avoid all tear-shedding movies/scenes/tv shows for the rest of 2005.

Looking forward to tml's class gathering! Haven seen the bunch for quite some time le...esp some of them that has been missing frm all gatherings since graduation >_<>

Bonita says,"This week is slack week."
***

So slack...! Two public holidays in a week = joyful week. Although I dun really know what are the Malay & the Indians celebrating...doesnt really matter anyway.

After many screaming and shouting and crying and sobbing and throwing tantrums and stuffs, Ma WON. SHe actually won!!! I cant stand it!! She's coming singapore tml!!!!!!!! Omg omg omg......my room is in a mess, my undies socks shirts pjs are heaped @ one corner, there are so many ants at my rubbish bin........................................and she's coming tml? TML TML TML??????

I got disturbed by a rich pervert today. Hw do I know he's rich? Cos I'm not blind...Ralph Lauren shirt + CK pants + a leather laptop bag leh. ( Rina say may be imitation). Anyway I was @ the platform waiting 4 d orchard train and this si wen bai lei came up and caressed my arm. When I turned to look @ him, he say "your cell all standing up leh". (I think he was trying to say my hair lah. How can cell stand up right....-_-)

I immediately step back and gave him the "huh? siao guy " face. For the next few mins he kept quiet. Then when the train was about to arrive, he suddenly look @ me and smile, " Later when u go in u sure wun sit next to me right? Later I turn right u sure will turn left...correct? Anyway la...i just like to disturb pretty girls la. He he." He say this leh!!!!! What the...! Nothing better to do...he don't deserve to wear Ralph Lauren shirt. Tsk.

Bonita says,"A normal blog entry."
***

Met up with kimmy for lunch. My darling pepper rice!! Currently my favourite fast food outlet cos I love hot plate food. Kimmy's sesame chicken salad was suprisingly tasty too.

Went over to Millenia Walk to find Rina. We had a looooong chat....from 5+ to 10. We talked about almost everything...talk till we nearly quarelled, talk till we laugh like witches. It has been a long while since we really sat down and have a nice chat *_*

Thanks to one of my boss, I'll be MISSING christmas this year AGAIN. Tsk. But I'll be home for birthday lah. ^^.

Tml will be the family conference (which shld be conducted long ago) whereby all my uncle aunties and cousins will come down 2 clementi and we will sit by a round table for a good talk and come up with a solution. Hopefully. I wonder if it will be just another fly-airplane conference......

First thing first. Everybody thinks that I should change my door asap(cos, as u know, cannot lock from inside). I agree. I'll wait for those everybody to give me $$ to change the door then, since they suggested it.

Bonita cries:"Get her out!"
***

The same thing happened again last night. While I was watching TV, she threatened to attack me again. Again and again and again howlongmustthisnonsensegoeson.

I made a brilliant counterattack. But when I went to bed, I just cant stop shivering...her boney fingers and that umbrella had been so close to my head...

Anywayz, I made a fool out of myself. My bosses were joking about my rewards (LV bags n stuffs...crap one lah) and I think I mentioned about me wanting an Evo 8. If you happen to know me well...you should know that I'm a car idiot who doesnt even know the difference between Benz and Merc benz. So anyway...few days later that Evo-8 joke, my boss specially intro me to a male agent and tat guy took out his car key to show me that he's really a evo driver. And. The laughing point is, when he took out his car key with the Mitsubishi logo, I didnt know what it was at all. I just look at him and ask "you show me this thing for what". I didnt even know the mitsubishi logo look like that leh.

>_-. Wu Ha.

I can say goodbye.
I can stop contacting him.
I can don't meet him for weeks and weeks and weeks.
I can even walk away without even shedding a tear.

But.
I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him like crazy.

I cannot pretend that nothing has happened.

I cant I cant I cant ........

Bonita sighs.
***

Friday faster come. Friday faster come.

But when Friday finally comes, I feel abit scared. Why does Time passes so fast ... ... so many Fridays come and go ... ... many years come and go ... ... then I'll grow old and die ... ... KOWAII!!!!

/bon shudders.

I may have problem taking leave during December. Tsk. If the incentive is real good then....^^

I misses my classmates alot. EX-classmates I mean. Hai. The rainy season is on its way ... it affects my mood. Sentimental. Wu Ha.

Finally uploaded these *

Last last week me and Hj went taka's Sanrio fair...


My dream room!



Squint ur eyes guys and see! Hello Kitty wardrobe Hello Kitty table Hello Kitty bed Hello Kitty mirror Hello Kitty this and thats...




The only thing I don't like about Hello Kitty is that her face is too round....


Hj wanted to bring that home...for 49.90 only!


I look so thin compared to Hello Kitty


Ka-cha