Its raining outside. Thats why I blogged this.

Its funny how things lingers on and on after so many years. Or maybe its just a bad habit? Everyone keeps telling me,"Kick the habit. Its affecting ur life." I know that. But isnt it happening to everyone else?There will always be someone that vanishes but leave a mark in your life. Someone, some things, some events that you can never wipe out from your memory.

I'm quite sure that I've got over him. But...somehow, there's a shadow.

I'm sensitive to his name. When I see his name in documents or hear his name, I get paranoid and only relaxes when I see that the surname doesnt matches to his. I know nothing about cars. But I stop to read news or reviews about Mitsubishi Evolution series. Whenever I walk past the bball court, I think of him. I compare guys to him. I envy his girlfriend. But yet I don't like him anymore.

He's nothing great. But he's great to me. Which is pretty wierd ... cos I dun even know him in person.

Maybe the reason that I couldnt move on is because nothing happened between the two of us before? If something had happened, anything at all, I might feel better? But why should I be expecting anything out of somebody that I dun even like? Wonderful mess.......