Darn mad busy these days. Sneaking a minute to blog before my new staff comes back, dont wana set a bad example.

Uh oh. She's back.

BYE!!

New staffs came in and left before I can even remember her face. I'm not going to let the next one eat into my time so easily.

Now. Feedbacks were that I'm very intimidating for newcomers. There used to be colleagues who buffer that mad air of mine, they go around giving out sweets, sitting down with newcomers for lunch, might even hold hands to toilet if there was another cubicle in the office toilet. I'm the poker face until the mask cracks. And then its happy family all over again. I'm proud to say we never had office politics within the team.

There's no one left to be the buffer girl now.

So these are things I gotta learn huh. =(

It takes two hands to clap, and only one hand to stop.

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The grass is always greener in somebody else's place.

You dream about going up there, but that is a big mistake.

The first two lines from "Under the sea", OST of Little Mermaid. I was in the school's choir in Hong Kong, we did a performance of this song, had a hard time memorizing the entire song (there is a rap!) but since then, it has been stuck in my mind and I can throw it out, anytime anywhere.

Sorry that's not the point.

I kinda miss the girls who flocked away. Looking at their achievements now, I hope this is what they wanted. Though that might not be the way that I've groomed them to be.

A little more communication might have brought this relationship to a further stop, but no matter what, that stop is inevitable. Seen that coming all along. There's nothing left to say.

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I don't owe you anything.

Period.

Random followers popping out of nowhere.

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The first Monday of a 2-booker team week. The peace sinks in so quickly, I can hardly recall the buzzy office. HAHA, somebody must be sobbing away about us not missing her.

I had one hard cry when Dav was gone, wrote lots of emotional entries when Gwen and Evelyn left, especially Gwen cos we spent so much time together doing almost everything. But nothing could be compared to that pail of tears I had over Giena's sudden departure. Gary walked in, silent, and closed the curtains behind him as I sobbed furiously away in his seat.

When all the XMMs decided that its time to fly, I'm dry. Saw it coming, had enough of mental preparation. It still stings, but not as bad.

I've gone through worst.

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When its too much for me to take, I run to him.

No idea what powers he got, he can make it all go away, in an instant. And there's nothing left except for quiet happiness.

Its funny how I see him almost everyday and still miss him every minute he's not around.

I wrote a really long post on political views but somebody threatened me to delete it, so its gone.

Sigh.

And.

BLEAHX!

I'll post when I move back to Hong Kong!!!

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The girls are leaving this Thursday. I'm numbed. Partings, goodbyes, tears, hugs....and then back again to work.

And then the next batch comes in.

Ice-breaking, keeping cool, friendly chats, cuddle sessions over lunch, back to the beat yo. Before its time to say goodbye, again.

Its not like I don't feel. I'd prefer to wrap myself up, numbed.

Cos there are lots of work to do. And you gotta move on anyways.

Yeah.

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Touch my man, and I'll touch yours.

I can be a slut a biatch a whore a brainpisser if I want to, its not that difficult.

Just lay your hands off my territories before its too late.

Its not a matter of money.

Its a matter of keeping to your words.

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I've been gone for a day and back. Still intact darlings.