最近喜欢把 blog 写成这种 format
people .. bear with me please

中学的时候有一个很令人讨厌的 vice principal
最记得她的一句话 是
"your fats clog up ur brain issit? "
为了那一句话，那一时的冲动
为自己带来了很多很多的麻烦
现在回想起来
其实一点也没有后悔当时的行为
如果当时没反驳，可能现在反而会非常非常后悔呢

来到 poly，又遇到这样子的老师
超级欠打
"Empty vessels make d most noise"
英文程度超底的我想了很久才明白她的意思
( 有不明白的人吗？leave a msg @ d tagboard n i explain )
比起那个 VP ，她骂得更高级更有水准
也更令人生气
想不明白为什么总是让我碰到不尊重学生的教师
就算我的学生多笨
我都不会讲出这样子的话
如果学生真的那么聪明，一点就明
那老师全部回家睡觉好了啦

明天补考。。。然后开工
会很累啊

总是有些不负责任的人环绕在身边
拍胸口说 “ 包在他身上” 的人是他
在需要时没出现的人也是他
去死啦
这种人很需要反省反省
自己懒惰也别拖累别人啊

昨天看医生。。看皮肤问题
医生说我没事
Normal pimple outbreak..not even acne
奇怪的是我竟然觉得有点失望
照常理说应该是松了一口气吧？
四十五块的医药费。。。超级贵

人有时就是那么奇怪
虽然期盼快快乐乐过日子
但如果能遇到一些问题
引起身边人的些许关心 or 注意
也是蛮不错的
人是喜欢自怜的犯贱动物

很担心的事情
会令人心烦一整天
越想去控制自己的情绪
越控制不了

然后，担心的事解决了
外头下起了大雨
那种 闷闷的感觉 怎么都散不去

很想回家睡觉

家。。。到底是什么样的定义啊？
好想回家。。可是。。。
在那个没有我的房间
没有自己的电脑
没有放满 T-shirt 的衣橱
没有学校
没有工作没有补习
走着走着都会迷路的地方
是家吗？

那么。。要坐飞机才能到达的异地
怎么比家还要熟悉？
家。。。怎么连一点我的生活痕迹也没有？
怎么会连自己 家厨房 的酱油放那里都不知道？
衣服为什么要放在行李箱而不是挂在衣橱里？

最近为一些小问题延伸为越来越大的 essay question
为什么要写这些连我自己都不知道
雪球越滚越大了。。。。。

YoKattA! 终于染好我的头发了... 比之前那个黄头好很~多~！还好那天跟 San 拍 neoprint 留作纪念... 一辈子不是每次都会这么敢染黄leh. Rina sae my new hair color much nicer ar ... nw dat i bleach my hair le, very difficult to dye dark colors ar. Cos todae Mark gotta dye it twice juz 2 produce a darker shade of brown. D 1st round my hair was still yellow!! 好夸张呀~

一整天待在 town area, Rina 买衣服。她花了好多钱买衣，我花了好多钱吃 ~ 哈哈哈 >_< 蛮开心啦 ... only dat 一直有点担心还没做完 WM... Aniwae she meet up wif Jane for awhile. N kelvin oso! Shit ar...很不好意思。只好一直不出声 ... act like i anti-social lidat. 也不懂要怎么面对他啊...可能是心理作用, 每次想到那时候那件事就觉得 很 paiseh >.< haha ~ bt 他ok la.aniwae...nt my fault dat time 会认错人啊。cos rina sae marvin 也是说 ICT 有一个人跟 Kelvin 长的非常像 ( i tink cfm iz referring to darryl loh ).

很想换 image...only no money. 突然又很喜欢那种比较girl 的衣服 , like those 花花裙啦，背心啦，blouse la...wadeva la. Juz kind of sian wad i'm wearing nw. Wait till i cum bek HongkoNG! TransformatioN! 七十二变！

Fridae , Disaster day

每次在最最最~不想看到熟人也不想被熟人看到的时候，偏偏会看到很多人。本来讲好 meet Hj @ clementi bustop..but end up she woke up late. Din wana be late for d consulatation session (IMC class), din dare to take bus alone wif tis type of A.A hair alone...end up take cab. 浪费钱！！bo bianz...reach dere still din dare alight at atrium...drop off @ lt 22 dere...damn shit loh. Waited outside d class alone...n all except Rein came 4 d session. All our stuffs were wif d grp leader loh..end up 白去了一趟...wtf. >.< waste my cab money...

本来阳光普照的，不懂为什么下起了雨...新加坡天气反复无常. By d time i met Hj alr quite a handful ppl saw my hair le...though i wearing cap. Imagine if i nv wear cap...even worst loh. Damn uneasy...like everywhere u go, ppl will like, wana stare bt dun dare stare lidat ... overall 来讲，弹多过赞啦. Onli dat wilson tan n another 2 gals sae iz nice... speaking of wilson tan. Damn suey ar!! iz like i was telling Hj "最怕就是看到他... " den d moment we walk out of Co-op, i spot joseph n sally...den was tinking wilson cfm iz nearby le. 下一秒我已经看到他了！！而且他也看到我！Juz realise dat my cap's so 抢手...每个人都想把它摘下来....

Saturday ...work day

很忙啊！！超级忙！！Todae din work wif d ah-lian ( grace ), work wif d korean-star-lk-alike Jenny. 她人蛮好的...比较主动跟我讲话，哈哈 ~ 还请我吃东西！ 请吃东西的人通常不坏啦 ~ ^_^ 超多顾客, esp 很多买礼物给朋友的人。。。很多人生日是在九月 meh?

Aniwae...din feel so bad going town wif tis hair den going sch. Cos erm...没有认识的嘛！哈 ~ 发现来我们店的女生皮肤都好像蛮好的..duno y. Argh~!!~!~~!~! 我的皮肤越来越差了...so sad. A今天终於发薪水了！although onli $47.25...but alr damn happie le ~ yest still telling san dat i no $ ar...希望可以快点拿到这个月的吧！

Qt enjoy being salesgal...onli dat 脚真的会很酸 >.< 开始同情我妈，做了 sales 做了这么久...no wonder she always complain sae she beri tired. D first few hours of work still can smile leh...after 4-5 hrs d smile disappear le. Cos damn tired till u cant even smile. Next time dun dare complain wad salesgal so dao or attitude le...cos really damn tired de.

My hair my hair my hair...GONER! I dun dare go sch tml ar..tink gotta wear cap. Iz yellow ar..quite similar 2 a fren's color..i tink even yellower! Long story .. actually i din wanted dis color. Me n mark ( d hairdresser ) agreed on light brown, bt he said i gotta bleach my hair 1st 2 get dat shade. So he apply d bleach on my hair den do steaming ( juz 2 speed up d process la ). Abit pain la..cos i tink he din apply treatment like wad they do in 2-way. So he off d steamer n rinsed off d bleach immediately. Check d color...very buey balanced. Only those parts dat have less hair were bleached. That results 2 a re-bleaching...n my hair turn yellow. Sailormoon color ar ~

Looking at d mirror..quite shock! Cos really very very yellow! Hj sae like gu huo zai's color... at first i was still joking sae wad really damn ugli n dat i dun suit 2 b ghim moh. Bt after blowing hair...mark sae d color actualli nt bad. i oso tink nt bad leh..as in without my face la . >.< quite worried dat if really dye brown may nt b as nice as plain bleaching... den Mark sae y dun let it be. ( he even suggested making ash blue..... ) Bt got ask whether i dare 2 haf tis color anot la. Of cos i sae dare la...gei kiang leh. After dat i regret le! On d way bek 2 JP ar...so many ppl staring @ my head! Even wo zi ji dou kan bu xi guan...!!!

Hj hair iz much better than b4 ar... she xue bao her hair, so nt dat heavy-looking. looks lighter n more style...dyed slightly dark brown. Nt bad loh...cos she looks much younger n up-to-date wif d new hair! tinks she will attract more guys lu~ hohoho... ( gotta po her cos she agreed 2 pei me go sch tml morn ..wahhaha)

Aniwae..nw i feel like a yr 1 kiddy dun dare go sch ah. i really dun dare go sch ar...beri scared alot ppl look at my head. I really regretted ar...i shld haf juz bleach n insist 2 dye brown. dun wana go bek n dye again...bu gan yuan >,< tink i gotta go buy lots of caps n clothes juz 2 match my hair. haix! aiyah..... so depressed ar....

hey HEy! HapPie bDae to hairy monster!! Whahaha~19 le..zhang da bah! mai act cute le!

Yest gt one big ting happen ar >.< bt i nt supposed 2 sae here bah. juz wana sae dat .. i had some wierd feelings abt dis ting. Sometimes i cant understand myself. I cant explain my own emotions n stuffs. i duno wad m i tinking at all!!! hao qi guai de gan jue >,<

Ah yun called to ask abt her lang song bi sai ar..she qt nervous abt d coming competition i tink. cos nw p6 le..den if dis yr nv gt chosen for d comp she wun haf animore chance le. taught her some stuffs n techniques ... movements la, high/low pitch la. Hmm..sometimes feel qt useless as a sis. She gt prob onli cn tell me thru fone, i cant really help her much. We cant share clothes, we cant go out together like norm sis, we cant fight we cant quarrel we cant do tis do tat. Once she called me while i was working, crying sae she was drenched on d way home cos nobody fetch her frm sch. All d other kids gt mothers or maids or siblings 2 bring them bek home except her. Felt sorrie for her ... bt dere's nth i cn do.