I'm sending my boyfriend a gift. Ha!

Missy have a proud heart.

Missy is afraid to lose. Afraid to cry. Afraid to let out emotions. Afraid to care too much. Afraid to give in and get nothing in return.

Missy is just the same as everybody else.

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I went shopping alone yesterday. Dressed up nicely with nobody to compliment me. Anyway...shopping alone is not as scary as I imagined. I bought a Roxy cap and a pink tee from All-In-One. I managed to ask about my X-girl tee. All-In-One staff say can try...but no guarantee. Hmmm. I have no money anyway. Just asking for the sake of asking.

I just realised that I will be stuck here for another 3 more years because of the tuition grant obligations. That iz damn shit. Another 3 years here. If my dad knows about it...he sure will say something like "That time say 3 years. Now another 3 years. Later say 3 years again right?". Shit shit shit.......btw. June asked me about what will I do after graduation...I hate to think abt all these stuffs. Everyone hates it.

Let me think ya. Right after graduation, I'm planning to go home for a mth or 2 (-Class girls coming along if I'm not wrong-)... then come back here and send in 101 resumes to every single entertainment-related companies / schools/ organizations in Singapore. Preferably some well-known music companies. Worst come worst I go apply for full-time jobs at HMV or Music Junction loh...and if really really worst situation comes, I go back Shibuya work full-time till I get notification from the 101 companies that I've sent in resumes to. Okay...so my point is. I wana get a job that is related to ENTERTAINMENT AND MEDIA. This is my first step to my bf! If you think I'm just joking , you are so wrong.

We're going Sentosa tml! Yeah~

Why cant I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why cant I sleep whenever I talk about you?
Boyfriend!!!

Ha. (Er...ok. Not funny.)

I'm off on saturday! And I'm not happy...cos all my important events are over. Almost all the bball matches are over...there are no ENERGY functions coming up...no special concerts or performance or whatever shit. Really shit manz. Oh yar...got one la. But dun think anyone wana go with me. Hoobastank coming this sat at Siloso beach @ Sentosa. Not really really really keen on it either...I'm just bored.

Btw...class girls planning outing on Monday. Sunset Bay @ Sentosa @ 10 am. Dengi's birthday celebration after that. Interested pplz pls tag.

NDP outing on Monday. Okay. There wasnt many of us, we din get to eat steamboat, plus we din even get to see the fireworks ... but. Who cares? It was fun ^_^ Took lots of pix ... heard lots of lame jokes. Got to know this 2 friend of zac ... a really cute girl and a guy that has great resemblance of Desmond.

I need to get happy. I wana get happy. And I wan everyone to be happy (-which is impossible-). I heard more than one close friends commenting that "we have drifted apart". And this makes me unhappy! I've been feeling much of a loner ever since semester started...with everyone busy with their own stuffs + work + boyfriends + attachments. They say they think i'm busy...and I say I thought they are busy. Haix. What is this.

Listening to bf's album now. Its really nice. But the MTV sucks like what. (-YESH!I'M NOT DREAMING!HE IS MY BOYFRIEND-)

I'm dying to watch "The Village". Heard that its quite nice.

Hmmm.

Ahem.I'm dying to watch it.(*Hint Hint*)

I nearly went crazy.
Nearly.
I'm scared of myself.
Someone pls save me.

天无绝人之路.

I think its true. After being so depressed last night ... Jenny called early in the morning to say that my pay is out! And today is the big day for my bf --- his album is released! Finally ... anyway. He is really going to be rich ... I heard from the HMV staffs that all his pre-ordered CDs r sold out! And the 2nd batch of CDs (not pre-ordered edition) is already all fully booked...so if anyone wana get it, they haf to wait till the day after tml. And they might not even get it! WoW ....

I told San a story that day at Mt Alvernia, about a little girl living in a tiny wooden hut with a wicked old witch and her retarded son. The witch hated the girl, and the girl hated the witch. The witch wanted to drive the girl away, but the girl is protected by some magical powers and the witch couldnt bring any harm to her. Everyday, the wicked old witch practices her spells and curses. The retarded son is unharmed as he has his mother's blood as shield, and that makes the little girl the only one that is hurt by the curses and spells. To take revenge, the little girl plans to......( to be continued )

I think I'm going mad. That wicked old witch is driving me crazy. Made another din early in the morning again...i slammed the door at her. Think she's going to throw coacroaches into my room when i'm not in. Confirm one. Small gas old woman.

No-No is in Singapore! My colleague saw him near Far East! Wierd..my bf din inform me that No-no's coming ...

I'm editing and deleting my entries. Whatever I blog dun seem to make sense (-i caught u nodding!-) . Cos of my lousy english?

Feeling lousy. Feeling bad. Feeling sad. Feeling looked-down on. Feel shattered. I just dun feel good. Issit only pms again?

Aiyah. Whatever la.

FYP is giving me headache.
Headache. Headache. Headache. Headache. Headache. Headache. Headache. Headache.

Starting on IC project tml. Pair up with Jac ... really happy to have her as partner. Hope she dun mind me as well ya ^_^ EPM presentation this Friday, then Tourism, then FYP TOR ... this is madness. Duno how I'm going to cope.

The topic for this week is "Things that I dun like". Start tml.

N pplz...i think itz impt that we Chinese can read, write and understand Chinese. Its impt to upgrade urself and I, as a very good fren of all of u, have made the effort to update my Chinese blog! Go upgrade urself NOW.