Happy birthday to Edward, Jinwen and DirenBlue! Smilez and may u guyz be happy always ^__^!

Thanks for all your votes pplz! And to those who havent...just do me a favour k? I only have like...eh 6 votes? I have like 141 friends in Friendster leh...what happened to the other 135? Dead??????

Have heard about some of your comments...i will improve on whatever i have to improve k? Anyway...after chatting with ah seng's fren last nite....abit demoralized ar. ( -I'm easily demoralized- ) Doesnt sound as easy as I thought it was. I only wanted to write lyrics, not melodies or songs or to sing and be famous or what. But from what the guy said ... its like you really have to be very musical. Plus he briefed me on the restrictions when u write songs n stuffs ... in order for ur song to catch the judges attention, ur song have to sound commercialised. Like those typical K-Songs u hear on radio ... ... Wierd de. I thought commercialised songs are too common...........

Anyway...called ma and told her about all these stuffs. She really knows me well (-sometimes-)...she said that I should just give it a try loh. I will keep kp-ing about it if i dun send in my songs anyway... ... ha. But if never get in....$20 down the drain leh...$20 can last me 2 days ar....><

Alot of birthdays coming! I will be b & b (busy and broke) buying presents for all the beloved ones....and for those that doesnt get their pressies ar. U shld know why. U are not loved! Hmph ><

Okay. I need u guys to help me. I've already given up on the previous song...thanks to Miss Zhang's fren effort in helping to complete the scores anyway ^_^ I got another helper though...and i need your help also. I have posted some lyrics @ newstation...just go read it and choose 2 of the better ones k. I love u guyz!!! Post ur votes at the tag-board. I need the results by...say tml nite? K?

Havent been checking my blog for the past few days and I have to say that I was shock by all your long msgs. Thanks for keeping my tag-board alive and spicing up my blog. But... P-E-A-C-E k. Thanks.

Didnt intended to spend much today but ... bought a dress and a skirt. There was this damn cool bracelet next to InSurge but. Ahem. No more $ lu... anyway called SL kor in the noon. Wanted to ask him to help me get discount @ InSurge...bt he say his fren(-d boss-) was away on vacation so...hmm. Felt abit bad anyway....like only calling him when i need something. I'll change ... !! I dun wan anyone to feel that I m only contacting them whenever I need help or whatever shit ...

Btw, i just realise I've missed all those annual 3-3 matches. Saturday when Bus 7 went past Taka I had the urge to alight and go watch Converse 3-3. Didnt know it was on Sat! Haix. Den nvm...Sunday woke up early in the morn intending to go down Taka watch Converse 3-3. I heard whistles but thought i hear wrongly... damn shit. When i went down the CC was so crowded. Clementi 3-3!!! I missed another one... Anyway when I reached Taka, there was no more converse matches le loh. It was some floor ball tingy instead...Damn!!!! Wtf...

I have a new dream! I want to be a successful song writer! Ha...my IT diploma will be a waste (-that is, if i can graduate-). Updates on the song composing compy tingy...i only have one song on hand right now. Still waiting for Amy's bf to send his song over. The one i have now still lacks alot of stuffs ar...its just pure melody now. Waiting for hj's fren to complete the uncompleted part, then find either Wennie/ Seng to sing it and it will be done! Rina heard it juz nw and said it was abit similar to Jie Lun's "An Jing"....shit shit shit.

Haix.

Issit me? Or issit just him? Or issit me and him? Should I stop all this crap? Or should I just carry on? I think i use my brains at the wrong thing...

I know some people after reading this entry will start to complain that I'm hua chi again la...but hey! Guess what! Converse 3-3 starting soon le...and I'll get to see Desmond! Finally ... wonder how he look like now. Does he still remember me? Hmm...that's not important anyway. Hope that the finals doesnt fall on weekends...or else I have to apply leave ar. Hope that he really will turn up ... ... I'll go wish upon a star now. Byez.

Regretted of going town today. Err. Or rather regretted wearing what I wore today ... I promise I will dress properly to school everyday from today onwards! *** PROMISE ***

Hmm...my shopping list getting longer and longer. Considering about buying stuffs from the Yahoo! Auction ( when i get my next mth pay ) since I really cant find them in Singapore. Walked around Far East looking for X-girl's tees ... the guy @ Brosproducts & the kor-kor @ Collage say confirm very difficult to find one. Damn. Found some other nice stuffs though...but. I wan my X-GIRL TEE!!!!!!

Someone say its time to change the way i dress. Shit...i always get very paranoid when people say stuffs like this. Make me feel so depressed! All of a sudden I feel so lousy and shit and ugly and blah blah blah X 100..... I had set my mind in only spending only on facial products this mth. Seems like I gonna change my plan...why do people bother about appearance so much! If they never bother i wouldnt be fretting now..............argh!!!!!

My shorter version of my long long shopping list:

Btw...anyone know where to get the NIKE shoes i posted at the newstation?

Finally got my pay lu. Ha... business was good today. Even do OT just to hit our target. Alex + Hl pop by in the noon..then saw Jim at nite. Btw my senior made quite some comments abt the them. HAHAHA. Tiredz. Anyway got this desperado guy working @ Sony keep walking past the shop just to see my senior Jenny...and my senior keep avoiding him. Poor guy...he duno Jenny is married...ha~

Borrowed CDs from shop. This song is exactly what I'm thinking. E.X.A.C.T.L.Y.
Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rahter be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

"Anything but ordinary" by Avril Lavigne