2003 is about to end soon. Lots of stuffs, lots of new experiences tis year. Though not all happy ones...but each n every single one of these experiences enlightened me. (enlightened...did i use enlightened?) My opinions for lotsa stuffs changed....about life, about relationships, about friends, about future........and about the people around me. i believe i have changed (alot?maybe) ...but sometimes i like to fall back to the old-me, esp when meeting long lost frenz. Like meeting amy tis time round in HK. Felt that both of us are starting to cherish this friendship between us more than ever. Both half-grown up...learning to know that friends come and go and come and go. Learnt that the solution iz not to make more and more new friends but to cherish and hold on to the friends we have now.

Relationship wise....i guess i havent been a smart girl this year...ha. Too emotional? Too rash? Maybe. Didnt regret in liking that guy, but rather regret all my silly actions and stuffs. Have been doing alot of thinking while i'm away from sgp... ... about all those guyz i've met, liked, and passed me by. And my conclusion is....the problem lies with me. I cant sort things right. I cant make up my mind in what i really want. And I.......I just don't give guyz the impression that I AM A GIRL. One guy told me before that he wouldnt want to be seen with me(as his girlfriend) and yet his friends think that he's with his brother. Been damn hurt by this point at that moment....bt now, maybe he's right? That's what guyz think?

Friendship wise....din really made much new friends but, in some way strengthened the bond btw some frenz. Esp after the serious quarrel in Sept >_< Ok all these are from the bottom of my heart..To wen rina and elin, though seldom see them, but i m really touched to know that when something happen, u guyz still call me up, turn to me for console or wadsoever. For i know i'm quite useless...cant help u ppl in practical ways, give lousy advices and stuffs. To san...guess we are now at another level of friendship le. Not like crescent times, share joy but not troubles. Though sometime we have cold war btwn us.....but so what!? Ho.......and to hj. Feel too attached to her. In some way she's a sis to me...and thx to her help, my np life is great! Yeah thx ppl. Bon have learnt to appreciate u pplz le ^_^

Too long entry today. 18 this yr...din really feel much grown up ar. Not yet matured...but not that innocent anymore. Still waiting for miracle....or issit i have to buy that miracle? Hmmm.........wishes for next yr are....
1) Miracle happen--------ah bon become prettier!!!!
2) Steady income
3) Recieve flowers in vdae
4) See desmond again

No longer wish for bf lu~ haha.....hope to stay single and happy!!!!!!!!!

PS: There's another blog of today below =)