I have always believed that we can control our own feelings. You can stop yourself from getting angry, stop yourself from throwing a tantrum, stop yourself from liking someone, stop yourself from crying, stop from yourself from hating someone blah blah blah. I've always told Kaiwen these too. Don't know why but this time, this logic doesn't seem to apply. I start to dislike myself ... I think I am so irritating and disgusting. Just depressed.