Currently in a very very grey mood. Elin asked me how to reject a guy .. n i juz gave her my chunk of opinion which is -- tell the guy straight in the face that she doesnt wana waste his time by gifing him false hope. Let him noe that she's nt ready for ani relationship .. .. in fact i wished my crush would say all these to me. Getting tired in making guesses... guessing this guessing that. Nv noe when he's just joking n when's he's actually dropping hints telling me to gif up. .. .. I hate to be guessing. I rather face it and get over with it. .. .. .. losing hope every day. There are so mani chiobuz in sgp... ... wif beautiful legs. Depressing.

San asked me to go NDP rehearsel todae...bt i cant cos i sick. Aniwae i wun wana go oso... wad for celebrate sum other countries bdae when i wana go home so badly? doesnt make sense rite... ... last yr's NDP we went watch Namsan match.. n they won. So fast one year le. Time really flies. Another 2 yrs n i'll b out of NP (i mean if nth goes wrong la). Another graduation..another farewell to frenz..another promise to always hang together...bt sooner later we will all lose touch. Den another 2 or 3 yrs i pay bek gov. for my sch fees n i'll b away frm sgp. Den there'll b another farewell...n more "keep-in-touch" promises. Den...yrs n yrs n yrs lata...i'll b dead. Dis is so scary!!!!! hmm... so. Dun b a hum ji n juz do wad u wana do b4 ur life ends without u knowing it! *yar i'm referring to alex n xiwen*

Was tinking abt tis juz nw. Actualli dis juz a heated chat betw me n my gan didi.. he was saying dat he wana study n give up bball. I was asking him y n he said dat he tink tt dere's no future in being a bballer in sgp. Said dat onli beri few bballer will really make money out of bball. Said bball couldn't get him a wife, or a job, or a house. Half of wad he sae is true... bt rilly hate him for saying all tis. Make me having second thoughts abt being a referee... read another bball comic juz nw. One of d role was saying dat most bballers haf to grow up, step into society n gif up bball eventually. Saddening. -__-..

Aniwae yest noon saw d drum guy at atrium...pulled Gerald over expecting him to intro me bt he din. Buey zi dong >.< Ok juz kidding... he din look like wad i tot he looked like. nt as shuai as dat nite... bt cute. plain cute.

Saw jinwen outside Co-op.... he forever nv change lk. I hide behind huijuan once i saw him... funny reaction. Dino y i hide too... tink cos dis few days re-reading my diaries n stuffs.. .. so felt abit wierd. Huijuan said dat he saw me hiding.. ..bt he kept walking n toking to his frenz like he nv saw. Saw or nv saw...wads d diff rite? 1 yr le.. he's been changing gf after gf... n y m i rotting here?!

Dunoe hw cum i blog tis much. Cos i'm sick? Kinda moody... ... cant stop typing. Feel like buying a bicycle again.. .. sum bdaes cuming. Rg la weiren la rina la... ... tink i getting Melty Kisses 4 d both guys (muz get d same for both of dem) .. bt duno Watson still gt sell anot. If dun haf den i duno buy wad le...

btw...I hate to b sick. >.<